Monday, February 28, 2011

Day in the life of...

Since today is Monday and I'm having a huge case of "the Mondays" I thought I would share how my typical day goes.

5:15am- The alarm goes off. I don't even hear the alarm anymore since my husband controls it so I don't normal get up till it's been snoozed once or twice.
5:30am- Get out of bed. Since this is too late for me to do anything I shower and leave my hair wet. This is the only time I'm thankful for curly hair.
6:00am- Wake up Joanna and give her a bottle. I have no idea what we're going to do once we've weaned her from the bottle since there is NO time to eat breakfast.
6:20-6:35am- We need to be out the door. Closer to 6:20 on days my Mom watches Joanna and later on Daycare days.
7:40am- I finally arrive at work. If I haven't already put my make-up on in the car I do it first thing at my desk. I try and check my personal email and a few other things before it's time to start work. I also eat breakfast. Most of the time it's a bowl of cereal.
8am-5pm- My normal working hours. I'm lucky that my job is pretty relaxed. I'm also unlucky that my job is pretty relaxed because I spent about 50% of this time thinking about being at home with Joanna. I dying to figure out a way to make the same amount of money and stay home with her. If anyone knows of anything please let me know.
5-5:20pm- Is spent waiting for the hubs to come pick me up since we carpool.
5:20-6pm- Picking up Joanna. Since we tend to be social butterflies we can't just run in pick up Joanna and go. We have to spend an average of 30 minutes chatting it up with either my Mom or school teachers.
6:45-7pm- We finally arrive home.
7-7:30pm- Prepping for Joanna going to bed. Some nights are bath nights. Some nights are just jammies and quiet play.
7:30-8pm- Joanna bottle and bed. We have such a good bed time baby. She drinks her bottle while we cuddle on the couch then up to her room were she just lays down and goes to sleep. If she cries I know something is wrong because she never cries at bed time.
8pm- I find/prepare something for us to eat for dinner and we spend about an hour unwinding with our dinner in front of the t.v.
9-10pm- We spend this hour doing things for the next day. Well the hubs is usually doing dishes while I'm chopping food for Joanna and packing our lunches. If this doesn't get done at night I'm up at 5am doing it so we would rather do it at night.
10pm- BED TIME!!!YIPPEE!! OH JUST TO GET UP AND DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN!!!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Relationships

Do you ever feel like your relationships with people are inappropriate?

How do you change your relationship with someone?

I've been asking myself these questions a lot lately. I have yet to find an answer. I feel like I want closer relationships with some people and I want to distance myself from others. The thing that makes this so hard is that everyone has a different idea about what an appropriate should be. I want to strive to have good, healthy, and strong relationships with my family and friends. Relationships where there are clear boundaries. I want to stop myself from crossing these lines with others and get the same in return. I feel like people are crossing these lines with me and in an attempt to keep people behind the line I've ruined relationships. I don't feel like people respect my wishes. They don't respect the kind of family my husband and I want to build. I know that most of you know that when you become a parent everything changes. Your whole view of the world is different. I want my daughter to be surrounded by these good relationships. I want her to know that I'm her Mother not her best friend. I want her to know that it's not okay for people to cross over her comfort zone. This issue is such a struggle for me. I'm open to some advise.

Friday, February 18, 2011

Heavier Things

Warning this is an emotional post.

Romans 14:8For if we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. Therefore, whether we live or die, we are the Lord's.

Some of you may now this but we lost my Grandma last week 2-9-11. When ever anyone close to you dies the pain is beyond words. I am deeply saddened that Joanna will not remember her Great Grandma. My Grandma's middle name is Joanne and always went by the name Jo. Joanna(Jo) is named after her and Mike's Grandma June. This name sake is so special to us because these women mean the world and we loved them dearly.

Grandma lived a full amazing life. 91 years, 2 children, 7 grandchildren, 16 great grandchildren, and numerous others that called her mom, grandma etc. She touched the lives of so many people. Everyone handles death differently. Since she had this full amazing life and oddly because she passed on Joanna's first birthday I feel pretty okay. I don't feel that she was taken away too soon. I don't feel robbed of my Grandma. Yes, I'm sad and miss her already but I'm excited that she's in a better place. I'm excited to Joanna about her amazing Great Grandma. How special she is to be named after her. How special she is that she was able to let go of life after seeing her on her first birthday. I'll be able to tell Joanna that she laid in her bed and despite pain saw Joanna and reached out to hold her. Tears run down my face as I type this not just because it's sad but because it's AMAZING.

I will honor her memory everyday. I will thank God for the gift of life. I will thank Him for giving us all this time with her.


Joanna's Birthday 2/9/10

Joanna and Great Grandma playing

Joanna's the last day she saw Great Grandma 2/9/11

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Blogging

Okay so this is my second attempt at starting a blog. I hope it goes better this time around. I love reading peoples blogs. I mostly love the honesty and windows into other people lives. It makes me feel like I'm not alone out here in my quest to become a better women, wife, and mother. I read tons of blogs written by amazing stay at home moms and stay at home working moms but none from any full time 9 to 5 moms. I feel like the kind of life us working moms live is totally different from stay at home moms. I don't feel like one is better than the other we're all trying yo meet the same goal. (Goal being raising happy healthy children.) I hope that maybe in writing my own blog I might help out another 9 to 5 mom. I might even help myself a little.